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I turn 21 a week from today. 

YIKES.

How did I get this old??!!

I remember when I turned 17...it was a Friday and I had already made plans with my study group to study for my AP chemistry test. I don't really like letting people know my birthday so I try not to bring attention or mention it at all. I think it has something to do with the fact that if I did I would expect or hope that something great would happen on my birthday and when it doesn't I would be really sad about it.  

Anyways as I was about to leave for my study session I stopped home to grab a few things when to my surprise I found that my entire room had been decorated with balloons and streamers. My friends had planned all of it along with a day of activities. 

Since then birthdays have been pretty awesome. We would spend winter nights in a hotel up in Park City or party on the strip in Vegas.

Each year I just looked forward to doing something exciting and fun to celebrate another year past but this year....

I would rather not turn 21. I would be very much ok with just being 20 again. Or 19.

But 21? I just feel like once I get past this threshold there is nothing holding me back from turning 35. I am held accountable to all sorts of things and the responsibilities just get heavier.

I am an adult now.

Oh gosh I think I am having a mini stroke and developing an ulcer just thinking about how old I am getting.